This feels like a REALLY big deal. For over a year I’ve been learning from my beloved Aerosha studio. This week I’ll be in Toronto on business and have scheduled an Intermediate Pole Tricks drop-in while up there. So many questions!
Am I advanced enough to not look like a fool? Will they make me wear heels? (I don’t dance in heels.) How will I feel with all the lights and possible mirrors? (Our studio is candle-lit and there are no mirrors – more on that in another post.)
And the biggest one of all – why does this feel like cheating? I know my instructor visits other studios when she travels. Why shouldn’t I? Am I afraid I might learn something new? (Ridiculous – I’m PAYING to learn something new, otherwise I’d just rent studio time to practice on my own.) And if I did learn something new am I afraid my instructor wouldn’t be pleased? I think she’d be delighted (though she may have to help improve my form if I learn something unsafely).
I’m kind of freaking out about this. There will be no safety net of people I know who love me and support me. It’s been a long time since I was in that situation and back then I KNEW that I knew nothing. Now I’m afraid I’ll act like I know something and everyone will see that I don’t. Am I 13 years old or 40? This is crazy! Time to put on my big girl booty shorts and step into the wide world!